Life is looking up!

2013 was hard. 2014 started off looking really bad, but....things change!

I decided that even though the year was starting off bad, I would not let that determine my outlook on life. I have a man that loves me unconditionally and makes me feel smart, beautiful, and like I am the queen of the world. That in itself is one of the most amazing feelings a woman could ever feel. He's been my rock for 21 years. Don't get me wrong...we've had out ups and downs. We spent 2 years apart and even though I've always heard that a separation is a death sentence for a relationship, it saved ours. It gave both of us time to realize what we truly wanted in life, what we could and couldn't deal with from each other, and it made both of us realize that we couldn't be without one another. But then again....we are somewhat unique.....we got married 3 weeks after we met. It was love at first site and the first time I looked at him, a voice in my head told me that he was the man I would spend the rest of my life with. I know that sounds kookie, but it is the truth!

I have decided that no matter what curve ball life throws at me, I am determined to find the silver lining.

My year started off with the swine flu....the positive that came from that.....the company that I work for finally realized that what I do is important and there isn't anyone who knows how to do what I do. When I returned, I was advised that I would be transferred to our main office so that in the future, I would have someone there to cover me when I am out! I've been waiting five and a half years for that!!!

My son's engine in his truck blew up in the beginning of December....the positive that came from that...once we get it back from the mechanic, he will have a brand new truck! Major damage was done to several parts under the hood when the rod blew through the top of the engine block. Yes it's costing us an arm and a leg to get fixed, but hey.....a new truck for $6,000....you can't beat that!!

My husband falling off the ladder....the positive that came from that....he now realizes that he is no longer 17 years old, and that he needs to take care of himself. When we went to the doctor to get his back checked, his blood pressure was high. Really high.....150/128. The nurse and doctor didn't seemed too concerned with it since they knew he was in immense pain. But now he is concerned. He wants to go back to the doctor when his back is healed and have them check his blood pressure again. He hates doctors so this is HUGE!!!!!

My son finally got his cyclical vomiting under control and is back in school and doing great! He's an amazing kid and he doesn't let his disease get him down! I'm so proud!!

My daughter and her husband have been struggling financially, so I decided to start buying her small bead kits (since she loves to make jewelry) so that she could put them together and sell them to help make ends meet. She's so sweet and talented, and she just doesn't realize what an amazing woman she has become. She's given me the best grandson a grandma could ask for! He's three and can read! And I'm not talking about small words! I'm talking about he can read pretty much anything you put in front of him! He knew the entire alphabet and numbers by sight by the time he was two!! (I think he takes after his meemaw - ME!)

I read (on a FB group I belong too) other people's struggles with their mast cell disorder and I realize just how blessed I am. Most are to the point where they are almost always confined to their homes - prisoners of this disease, and I realize that I can go pretty much anywhere, smells don't bother me, I take a minimal amount of meds in comparison to them. I am blessed beyond measure! I don't let this control me. Because I know that eventually, this will get worse, and I will more than likely become like the others....afraid to eat...afraid to sleep...afraid to breath because any one of those could kill me.

Don't let life tell you what you can do. You tell life what you are going to do!!